Firstly,HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI ZHONG!

These days have been rough. Well, firstly, i can't go to Vietnam so that's a total ******* up matter which i really hate. Why can't my parents have faith in me and just let me go. Life officially sucks. I mean thinking back i really have no idea why i did the things i did way back then. I mean -WTH! If there was ever such a thing called a rebellious gene, it probably kicked in late. Anyway, had a big fight with my parents and i probably will not recover from it until next month or something...
Well, its good that they went overseas to leave me alone, probably need the time to chill and play and play to forget all this unhappy incidents. Anyway, i realized that i tend to overcome my emo-ness when i play or build something. Building action figures can really get my mind off stuff since i need 100% effort and attention. Also i think the fact that deep down building action figures is certain. I know what the outcome will be and there are no uncertainties after all the final outcome has only one possibility. I wish life could be like that.... but nothing ever goes the way you want it....

Went out on monday to Doby Ghaut on Monday after Mass Dance to play. Went to watch NEW MOON again. After watching it twice, i realised that the movie sucks. Haha but watching Serah and the other girls especially Lydia going ga-ga over Jacon was damm funny. Somemore, Jasper will come and give comments over their reactions. So hilarious. Went home late, around 8 plus. Quite suprised my mother never over-react as she usaully will. Wow, why can't she always be like this? hAHA anyway we also spent like 1 hour plus going around Plaza Sing before deciding what to buy for li zhong's birthday :D

Yesterday Was LI ZHONG'S BIRTHDAY !!!
Went to Tampines Sports Hall to play some badminton and realised i kinda sucked at it. But hey, at least i know how to play. Oh on the way to the sports hall, i saw Yu Rong on the bus... dunno if she recognized me or not, and also didn't have the chance to say hi to her. Hmm i wonder if she knew it was me. Thinking back the last time i saw her was like at UBIN this year but the last time we spoke was like 3 years ago. Bummer, in a way as life moves on, friends may also tend to change. That's why i have to cherish all the memories i have now. Anyway after 2 hours of a gruelling badminton match went to parkway to buy Li Zhong's cake while the rest went to the beach. After that they came over to crash my house and agreed that my room is very easy to EMO in, that's why i am probably so EMO. Anyway, glad Li Zhong liked the cake. Went to play Wii afterwards, and seeing them play is realy very hilarious. Especially, Li Zhong and Jasper who were like monkeys. They left quite late and i staright away went to bed...

And i woke up with a flu and fever. Lol. Went to mass dance and survive all the dances. ITS OFFCIAL, I SURVIVED MASS DANCE. I am so proud of myself.

You know sometimes endings can really suck. Just Read finish a manga and after everything ended, i felt a part of me just died somehow. It was not like the ending was unsatisfactory but merely i wished that it will go on. Sometimes, when you realize a story or a comic that you love and cherish came to and end, after a while you feel something about you has changed, deep deep down, but you have no idea what that change is and probably never will. Then all you feel is emptiness and you fill it up again by finding else to read and watch. Lol, it is a bit exaggerated but i just can't help feeling this way sometimes...

"If you stand still... nothing change... but if you take one step foward... I have a feeling something will change... and something good will happen."

Sometimes however, it is so difficult to take that single step, just wish someone will give me a push in the right direction however....

Haiz damm long never blog already cause my parents are constantly hogging the main computer. Been a rough few days and i have mixed feelings. Let's start with something happy. Went to Jasper's house the other day to play Mahjong. Very happy :D Finally can go his house. His room damm cute cause filled with pokemon drawings and all very look alike. His mum is a damm good artist. Moving on before we started to play, we taught Serah the basics and very soon she caught on. Played until 1 am until i going to fall asleep, then luckily Jasper cook instant noodles for me. So that helped to recharge my batteries, but Lydia died so ended up playing 3 MAN MAHJONG. Wahahaha then i luckily first time got the 3 Great Scholars :D So happy. After playing from 7 pm to 7 am i went home. My parents came back from Turkey and life went on as usual.

Had Mass Dance practises these past week. Actually i only went for 2 sessions cause i had an OAC meeting and the other day i had some family matters. Lol i officially cannot dance cause Lydia keep laughing at me. So we had to hide at the back to dance so as to not disgrace Delta and myself. LOL. Lydia dance very well and she keep teaching me the moves. Haiz i am so happy that got someone to accompany me to dance if not i will make a fool of myself every session. Anyway today, Shawn and Brandon were the only 2 Delta house comm. members that came. Had a nice time with them and Shawn also keep laughing at my dance - It's okay, i already accepted my fate that I CANNOT DANCE. But the worst part is they made me go to the front for dance couple dance.... OMG... Luckily my partner is Lydia.... unlucky for her. But somehow or another, i managed to survive.. so thanks. After mass dance went off to newton to prepare for BUKIT TIMAH TRAINING......

But before that... The damm screwed Vietnam, Hanoi YEE. I really want to go Year End Expedition, but the dates really suck. I mean i alreday told you guys in advance my december and January is filledand booked for family. That's why originally YEE is in December. Then it changed to Jan, i mean i understand that the others need the subsideis or the teachers, but it feels a bit like i am being sacrificed for the others. Of course, i know that this feelin is wrong but i just can't help feeling it that way. So the best way is to go on the 5th and join you guys half way. Then my parents violently objected to this idea. Truthfully, it is a waste of money, going to Hanoi for 4 days and pay $500 ++. The only reason i am going is really not the trip itself but just to join you all in the YEE and supposedly have fun. Yet my parents are dead against it and i am dead on it. LOL i really am very tired fighting with parents because of another OAC incident again. Can someone just save me?? Life is so screwed sometimes.

Lastly tHe Bukit timah training. It's total GG. First, had to carry 5 X 1.5L bottles for training. But i only brought like 4.5 L, partly due to the fact that i don't have any more big bottles so had to carry like 7 small bottles instead. The sets of stairs can seriously just die lar. And the weight is so freaking heavy but somehow i survived. Then it started to rain, and we hurried ourselves to the start point. At that time it was 5 p.m and i wanted to go home by 6p.m cause latest i needed to back by 7 p.m. But everyone else wanted to just trek to Mac Ritchie. Then i was like trek until 6 plus then i shall go home, but then the route is completely jungle and deserted. There was no way out until the end. So i just rushed foward at a rather fast speed with Li Zhong cause i think we both wanted to go home very badly. But apparently our pace was too fast, cause i think our weights were lighter and we had our umbrellas instead of ponchos. So we had to wait and wait very long. Oh and Serah sprained her ankle, so our pace had to be slow. Yet me and Li Zhong and eventually Zhu Jun continued at a very fast pace before stopping for them from time to time. I mean to us it's a moderate pace nad probably cause i needed to go home very badly before i die i rushed in a sense. Eventually we reached the bus- stop in the middle of nowhere at 7. 30 p.m. GG for me. Went home late and got scolded. Sianz i shall not talk about sad stuff. Anyway, i am sorry to the team if i walk very fast and appeared to not care about you. Lol i was in a stupid dilema myself. Anyway, we made it and stuff. But i will never trek to Mac Ritchie from Bukit Timah again.

Lastly, my phone is spoilt, probably due to the rain and jungle. Some of buttons are all jumbled up. Time for a repair/ new phone. Hopefully is the latter. :D However....